| In the area of my weaknesses,there is super abounding grace, and excess on top of it. (: Just like how a father is always quick to attend to his beloved toddler every time the latter falls down while trying to walk in his own effort, so does our gentle and caring Father from above. The tripping and falling of the toddler signifies how we as His beloved might behave each time we decided to strive in our own efforts, and we get disappointed each time we fall. But we always forget that He is there to pick us up every time we fall. I believe he longs to hold our tiny hands and gently lead us to better places! He can choose not to be there,but even before we choose Him,he has already chosen us.(: We are so dearly loved and treasured by Him! I wrote this post to remind myself that each time when i'm mindful of my weaknesses and past failures,i need to know that He is there,past present and future-A fact that will never change. Even in my weaknesses, His presence and grace is all the more super abounding! I can gladly know that He is holding my hand,if i allow myself to rest in Him. Rest in His presence, and live not the normal life that people think i should have, but one that is more of like heaven. Thank you Jesus for your wonderful work on the cross. I was talking in an entry dated weeks ago about how i find it strange that despite the fact that i'm always in a perpetual depressed mode since young,unable to feel happiness and peace in my heart,i'm always very easily amused by the way people talk and act,as in i laugh so easily because i really find the people around me very humorous. And i kinda like that light hearted side of me.(: Then during service on sunday something just dawn upon me suddenly. Pastor talk about how grace is more attracted to the weaknesses of men rather than the strength. Then it just occurred to me about something about myself. My depressive and highly emotional heart is always regarded as my biggest weakness,and i always wondered why it always dwell inside of me. However i just feel God telling me that hey,you don't laugh so easily for no apparent reason right? Why are you the person that finds joy in areas of life that others don't find it funny? Well and hey,i feel that His grace is actually super aboundingly there all along! And i'm already starting to acknowledge the start of it all. The fact that i can find amusement in little things is not there by probability and randomness,it is actually His grace that is always with me despite my pessimistic and negative outlook of myself and in life. I believe His grace will overcome this gritty weakness that is in me,so much so that His finished work in me is something that not only blessed me,but it allows me to be a blessing to others as well. (: I shall allow His grace to work in me,and continue laughing at everything hehe. |
Ya and i sort of became kinda moody and restless as a result of that. Think i'm someone that really need to be close to people! Daddy God help me stay close to you!!! I want to be even closer to you! More of you and less of me!
Its definitely harder to manage now but i kinda like the korean-ish look hehe! Its more interesting i feel... And i don't need to comb my hair. Just wondering how long the curls will last... Cos i washed my hair today and i'm really frightened by how straight it looks whenever i rinse my hair with the showerhead. Hmm...